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help me decide on a moral dillema...
ok this is quite shameful but here goes.....earlier on today i was out with my freinds, going to various bars etc having a good time, then my freind said he would take me to a 'strip club' he would pay for me to get in, so i said fair enough, so we went in there and i was not comfortable with it but i still went along.....
then a lady came up to my freinds and asked; "would any of you like a dance" ofcourse they dont want one, however one of my mates points me out, i was having a drink (non alcoholic) i didnt even look up to her i was that sort of.... ashamed....i just nodded no, and my mate said he will pay for it....so i was dragged off the couch.
at this point i had to wait for about 10-15 mins as it was a busy night and a private dance was not easy to come by with a one on one room....
at this point i did have a look at her, but not in a sexual manner, i just looked at her and thought to myself "why would anyone do such a thing" a place where testosterone laden males are salivating at women as sexual objects, "im sure shes intelligent", "she could so something more honourable"
so im feeling down after a relatively bright start to my day....
so i went in after a period of waiting... and i so wanted to ask her questions about the job, but as i was embarrased as well as a feeling of guilt....you could call it..... it just did not feel right, i dont what these people get up to, it could be leading to other things such as forced prostituion or whatever, but i tend to care alot about people and for the rest of the night and during after this incident still to this moment its on my conscience.
i never asked for anything, as soon as i was in there i felt uneasy.....
so im in a moral dillema, right now everyone is saying its fine you got what was paided for etc but did i enjoy it ? truthfully ? NO! about 20% if a measurement was taken but looking at it, its just not right....
what do you all think ?
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