Birthday blues

jrhnewark · 15-05-2006, 15:29

Now, the little birthday thread has put a little smile on my face - so thanks!

It's my birthday today. But it doesn't feel like it at all. In fact, I feel like a big bag o' crap.

My birthday doesn't as such really bother me - I quite like it, but I'm old enough to not really care tooooo massively now. It's just the fact that one or two people have either forgotten about it, or alternatively they've just not bothered to get a cheap card and a second class stamp.

I've also arranged absolutely nothing - no party, nothing at all. Why? Probably because a while ago I kinda just grew apart from many of my friends. I have one or two friends, but no one I'm really close to anymore - not around here, anyway. Which kinda depresses me, because I was used to having friends around me all the time. I suppose the solution to that is to go out and make some, but I really don't like it around here - it's a bit of a craphole in the main and the people aren't massively exciting or welcoming (again, in general - officially it's very nice town, etc., etc., etc., just not what I'm used to).

The other big thing that's bothering me is having no, how can I put it, 'significant other' to share it with. Again, the solution to that is... but I don't want to. I mean, I do want to, but there's already someone I want - and it just seems that I can't have her. We actually turned a corner the other day in that we still said that some casual sex might be on the cards, but she's got this other guy - I can't cope with sharing her and holding out for her when she's just going to fall for this other guy. It hurts too much.

Oh, and I have big exams starting a week tomorrow. Which I'm going to fail because I haven't done the revision I needed to do.

So that's really it. Oh, and it's dark and grey outside which doesn't help. Anyone have any words of wisdom?

Seti · 15-05-2006, 17:08

Yeah ! Calm down take a BIG breath have today off, get a cheap bottle of wine and chocolate or something and grab a DVD. Talk to your family. THen tomorrow REVISE and getyour life into some focus again.

We all want everythign at once cos we are only human. But, like us all, you need to prioritise and decide that revision is more important than women, drinking or anything else untill it's over.

Then in the nice long summer break you can look for someone better than just an offer of casual sex and hopefully life wil start to feel better for you.

oh and Happy Birthday

Sian

jrhnewark · 15-05-2006, 19:59

Thanks Sian.

I've had quite a good phonecall this evening about a job in the Summer that seems promising, which will be interesting.

The revision does need to be done, and soon. I'm gonna prioritise by order of how the exams come - so it'll be English Lit first up!

I'm just a wee bit low at the moment, and I suppose birthdays tend to accentuate that.

nffc · 15-05-2006, 21:13

Chin up. Won't be long until your exams are over, then hopefully you can work out what to do next. If that means changing school/college or a job then at least that will mean more people, more possible friends- just be yourself, there will be someone out there it's just a case of finding who.

(Sent off for the Provisional yet?

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